Your memory is so vivid in my mind; you still live in my head.
I think about you. I still pray for you before going to bed.
You were so lovely, looked like daddy, and shy we suppose.
You were a thinker. We had that idea with your pose.
You were a fighter. You were amazing with the rapid heartbeat.
You did all you could just to be with me up to the last minute.

You were the one I had, the one I may never have again.
If He gives then He gives.  But only He knows when.
I will be better this time, I have learned from past mistakes.
Just to have one like you, I will do whatever it takes.
I will be ready this time, your foundation I will build.
I hope I still get the chance, that will be a dream fulfilled.

For I never realized how precious you were until you were gone.
It just dawned on me that by now I would have had a son.

-ImAShellCracker, 110113


Borrowed Time

While everyone is busy entertaining visitors,  or catching up with each other, or passing around biscuits and coffee, I sit in the corner of this funeral parlor enjoying some alone time. And questions about life and death start to pour like the rain that is outside this glass window.

Another day had passed, another day had come. What have you done in a day?

Have you reached out to someone who is in need?
Have you comforted someone in pain?
Have you smiled at life’s surprises?
Have you hugged someone who feels down?
Have you told someone you love him or her?
Have you said sorry to the one you hurt?
Have you thanked someone who makes life easy for you?
Have you done your part in letting people know Someone actually cares?
Are there goals unreached?
Are there words unspoken?
Are there wheels unturned?
Is there unfinished business?

So while this life is just borrowed, how about we make it worthwhile.
Time is the only thing we have now.
Time is the only thing we’ll lose soon.

-ImAShellCracker, 101213